Hi, friends! Must say, that Europe recap I just finished kinda took it out of me. For those of you who have followed along and browsed through the trip recaps, kudos to you! As you can tell, the Colour Journal got a bit of a facelift, and I am super excited about this new direction. It just feels more me.
So I wanted to take some time today and update y’all on my life lately. I feel like I haven’t really done a good life-recap in quite a while. I got back from Europe in mid-July and everything has just felt like a whirlwind since then.
WORK: The obvious question and the biggest filler of my time these days. What in the world I’m doing with my life is a topic that comes up frequently. When I returned to Fayetteville in late July, I was full-force job searching. Every day I would get up and spend the day sending out resumes, reaching out to people I knew in the area, tweaking my resume, interviewing with companies, etc. This continued for about 2 months. Seriously, guys, this felt like the longest two months of my life. Job searching is NO joke. It pretty much drains every ounce of confidence you had about adulthood and makes you wonder how you’re ever going to make it to that dream job. Maybe I’m being a little dramatic here, but these two months were full of ups and downs of feeling helpless, then hopeful, and repeat. As I continued this process, I was so confused and frustrated as to why nothing was really biting. Then, all of a sudden, I got a few offers at once. Should’ve known it would work out that way. Regardless, I’m so thankful it did!
I am working as a design intern at a shopper social media company called Collective Bias. Y’all. I seriously don’t think I could have ended up in a cooler spot. Since my interview, I have felt so at home at this place. Just a few of the perks include: um, getting to DESIGN, casual attire, DOG-FRIENDLY OFFICE (seriously, pups are usually the first to greet me in the morning), incredible team, etc. I really could go on and on but I will just leave it with this: I truly, truly love it.
The other half of my time is spent working with a handful of different clients as a freelance designer and blogger. I have absolutely loved the flexibility I’ve had to spend half my time working with a ton of amazing people and companies who believe in me and my work. Ah, seriously, guys. No better feeling than to work with incredible people, doing what I love, daily. Such a gift. One of my favorite client’s is Shindig Paperie. I jumped on in September to get their blog going and have loved the creative freedom I have been given with their brand. Pretty much every single product is swoon-worthy, so it makes my job pretty easy. You can see more of what I’ve been doing with Shindig Paperie here!
Overall, I love what I’m getting to do. If you would have asked me a year ago what I thought I’d be doing post-college, it probably would look a little bit different. I would have expected to be working 9 to 5 in one spot, making a consistent salary, and feeling like I had adulthood under my belt. Haha. My post-grad life has turned out to be a little different, but I’m just so thankful. Loving to wake up and go to work every day is such. a. gift. Getting to use my passions and talents with incredible people and businesses is such. a. gift. One thing I’ve learned so far that I think I’ll keep with me for a while: passion is more valuable than a paycheck.
LOVE: You know I gotta do a lil update on my love life though. Ah. *Insert sigh here*. So, I’ll just leave it at this. Almost a year ago I met that handsome man (featured above). Almost a year ago I let love conquer fear. Almost a year ago everything changed. And it’s been almost a year of bliss and joy and learning and growing and understanding grace and the gospel and life with him is just better. I’ll be posting our full ‘story’ on our one-year, yay! Stay tuned for that…
LIFE IN GENERAL: Good. Hard. Refining. I feel like every single day I’m reminded of how much I have to learn about this thing called life. I don’t really think anything could have prepared me for true adulthood. It’s hard and it’s scary and it’s liberating all at once. It builds you up and tears you down. You’ve got the world at your fingertips but you’ve also got bills to pay and reality to deal with. It’s hard to know the balance. It’s hard to know what’s the “right way” because usually there’s not one, but it doesn’t stop me from trying to find it. I guess I’m just slowly realizing that I stepped into post-grad life searching for the map everyone was using, only to find out no one actually ever had one. Which, that in and of itself can be both freeing and paralyzing at the same time.
Right now, it’s about enjoying the process. Savoring small moments. Finding peace in the unknown. Thanks for following along, friends.