Hi, friends! It’s been a bit since I’ve shared my heart and mind in this little space. I want to take some time to share about some personal things that have been going on in life lately. Some great things, some not so great things, learning a ton through all of it.
As I had mentioned earlier on the blog, I spent a month traveling Europe with my two best friends, Hannah and Kristie. We traveled to Barcelona, London, Amsterdam, Paris, and through Italy. It was the trip of a lifetime, to say the least. Every moment was filled with beauty, valuable life lessons, adventure, and friendship. There’s not a day that passes that I don’t wish I could wake up next to my two best girl friends, grab a cappuccino + croissant from the bakery across the street, and end the day with tired feet and full stomachs. I’m so excited to show you guys all the photos we took in each city. I hope they leave you inspired and itching for your own european getaway! Stay tuned in the next couple weeks for highlights from each city we visited!
After Europe, I packed my bags once again and settled back into a new home in Fayetteville, Arkansas. I fell in love with this place through college, and just-so-happened to meet a boy who makes sticking around not so scary. I truly never thought I’d be starting my post grad life in Fayetteville. But, you know, here I am. I’m scared and I’m uncertain of what the future holds, but I will say, I am so thankful that so many others in my college community decided to stick around, too. I’m living in a two bedroom apartment with my roommate of the past three years. First time I’ve had my own bedroom since high school (gasp!). It sure does feel nice to finally have my space set up, decorated, and lived in. Nothing like a little nesting to make you feel more at peace in a new season.
So what now? Now that I’m back, I’m slowly having to accept the things I left behind here in the ‘real world’. I’m twenty-two years old, unemployed, and scared. Scared of my savings account running out too soon, scared of investing my heart, & scared of ending up in a job I’m not passionate about. In this season, with so much uncertainty, I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t struggling with walking in fear. Don’t we all? We look at our circumstance, we forget about hope, we forget that God is actually for us, and we set our sights on all that isn’t. I’m constantly having to remind myself of truth. The truth that God hasn’t forgotten me, that faith isn’t faith when you get to see everything up front, and that life truly is an adventure when you operate out of trust. Of course, even as I type these things, I’m preaching to myself. These are things I have to remind myself of daily, no, moment by moment. I’m learning and living these things day by day. I’m job searching, I’m sending out resume’s, I’m interviewing, I’m doing all the things that adults have to do, and I’m learning to see the purpose in it. The purpose in ‘the in-between’, the purpose in the lack, in the process. It’s not fun, its painful, but, I know it will reap a better, more heavenly-satisfied heart in me.
Any of you other twenty-something’s feeling my pain? If you’re walking in this valley, too, I want to encourage you that you’re not alone. It’s hard, but you’re strong and capable and worth it. And these lessons, these processes, are worth far more than any paycheck.
Thanks for listening to my little heart spill. Lots of things going on in my heart these days. Keep an eye open for part one of the HBK Euro Vacay recap!